| wow its been a month and absolutely nothing has changed.
this is super gay. i feel like im wasting my life away. im so sick of worrying about him and what hes doing and who hes with and yadda yadda. its so stressful its hard to have fun. it seems like to get him to care i have to start talking to another guy and then he will care but when i come back to him its like he doesent care about me anymore and all the things he said and all the effort he put in goes out the window. its so stupid it makes me want to puke. if u care about someone care about them all the time dont just act like it to get them back and not pay attention to them. duh. and its so sad cause im seriously the only one who actually cares about him besides his family and im the one who he acts like he doesent care about. at this point i seriously wish i did not care about him at all. i pray to god that i can stop.
i think im gonna try something new for a change and see how that goes. im just so sick of the same old crap everyday. i just really cant deal with it any longer.
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| today was poopy. nobody is there for me not even parker. it seems like hes always too busy for me. i used to be his top priority now im just about dead last
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| i dont know why i almost fell for his dumb bullshit..again! im so stupid. yeah he really wants to be with me sooooo bad when hes picture commenting his mandu. duh he dont even comment me. if i wanted to be with someone really bad i wouldnt comment some other dudes picture instead of hers. duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i cant believe i almost went back to him. im such a fucking retard. grrrrrrrr i hate myself.
i miss sterling :'[
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| wow parker just finally admitted to liking mandy. i was right all along
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